Back again and still not giving up my dreams! I've been living in my new temp home for 3 weeks now and I have to say, I am a CONSOOMER Fiend. One of the most creatively fufilling times in a while for me, like really suprisingly given life. In chronological order: Welcome to the NHK, Kanon, Elfen Lied, Alan Wake, Chainsaw Man part 1, Kannazuki no Miko manga, fucking Gundam 79! In a 3 day span I finished Kanon, Elfen Lied, and Alan Wake, what a fucking trip that shit was. Gundam was so fucking good, actually some of the greatest television in those last 15 episodes, and Kannazuki no Miko's manga was the worst manga I've ever read! Aside from the NTR yuri manga but we leave that series in the past. And I know how goddamn late I am to this but, Chainsaw Man gave me that intoxicating feeling of having an obsession with a piece of media again, it might actually make me get into shonen stuff.

Needless to say, it's been a super fun time getting into anime, and non anime media for me right now. Actually a big reason I've been watching a lot more stuff than playing games is because when I first moved into this new house, I had no desk setup, so the most comfortable solution was putting a shelf next to my bed and that fucking sucked bad. My neck killed me so I could not play games comfortably at all, so instead I layed back and tilted my neck and watched a ton of Gundam. I have a desk now and woo boy I'm happy to be playing games again... but I fell for it again. Last 2 days I fell into the "online game trap" of only really playing Fortnite and Dead by Daylight. A little pass because the Stranger Things update came out but, I'm putting my foot down and experiencing new stuff again. A little experiment I'm doing actually is watching exactly one episode a day of Soul Eater. Why Soul Eater? Well it's because it's got this strange feeling inside me, I have somewhat deep 2nd hand nostalgia for it. Amongst my Cow Clan friends it was a big anime they were watching, Death the Kid was one character I remember them always telling me about. They and I, made Black Ops 2 emblems of Soul Eater characters, and they played some of the music from the show. I'm not a super nostalgic person but when I decided to watch Soul Eater on whim, I wont lie, I started crying when the ED played after episode 1. In a too personal reason to share, watching Soul Eater feels like I'm sending off that whole era of my life, that person, my old friends, and that childhood, getting played an obituary with Soul Eater. Way too much pressure on a show but I don't feel like it's affecting my experience with it, I genuinely find the show really fun and charming, completely 2nd hand biased though? It make's it a more interesting thing for me though.

I've been trying to get better at writing lately, I don't know if you could tell. It's still probably amateurish and flows really bad, but as long as it conveys the thoughts and emotions correctly than I'm okay with it, I can always improve techincal skill over time. Also I'm fucking sorry, if anyone has read this blog posts I apologise, I reread my old posts and it's dreadful going through them. The I chose the dark hour green color because I thought green was easy on the eyes but I found a way to make it fucking not. I haven't checked on mobile but the really thin strip where the words go that takes up so little real estate is a terrible choice by me. Really this whole site is a disastor, but I am glad to say that it's MY disastor! Social media is just completely immoral to use now, like please just quit it if you use it, I know everyone says that but by god it's the worst. I'm a hypocrite though so I'll still use twitter because thats where all the online artists dwell, but I'm not reading a damn post with words on the site, no more. Now more than ever in my entire life, do I want to create things. I want to do things with my own hands and create the most scrunkly pieces of media on internet.

If there is one thing I want to do on this planet, it's to be true to myself. I am a human individual who was instilled with life's purpose on July 4th 2019, the day I beat Persona 3. An anime girl named Aigis told me in the most unsubtle message of all time. Actually I'm not going to spoil what she said but what I'm getting at is this. Just have fun in life. Genuinely, I believe that just doing the things you want and trying to have fun while doing it is what motivates me to live. I'm done with cringe. Irony poising was perhaps the worst thing to ever happen in my life, and I'm ready to suck this poison out of me.

Also my ADHD has either come back or gotten worse lately, hence the unreadbly bad blog post right her. I use these blogs as a way to get my writing juices flowing and it does work! I like to ending these posts on something other than myself so here's my absolute favorite Youtube video I watched from last year. A vlog about Eddie Van Der Meer walking from Tokyo to Osaka. I Walked From Tokyo to Osaka: A 650km Journey